A few weekends ago I had the honor of taking the Dickson’s family pictures, and they were so much fun! Katya, Alex and Cael are such a fun family and just look at them, these lovely people are naturals in front of the camera! Cael has the sweetest personality, and so many adorable expressions that he allowed me to capture! The joy, love and fun that fill this family is contagious, it just warms my heart! Cael just turned on the charm with that precious smile! Seriously, I can’t take it…too cute!This little guy sure loves his momma, and gave her the biggest/sweetest hugs I’ve ever seen! The fun was not in short supply, I love it! Plus this kid has some awesome dance moves!See all the joy that overflows from them! Thank you so much for allowing me to capture your amazingly beautiful life! You were truly a joy to work with!
I find myself continually in a place where I am practicing contentment and trying to be patient as I wait for the next thing in life my heart is desiring. A few years ago this waiting was in regards to being married. I longed to be a wife and enjoy the companionship of my handsome hubby. I even got to the point in waiting where I told the Lord, “If this isn’t the person you have for me let this relationship dissolve and plant a new desire in my heart”. As you know I am now happily married to that same wonderful man and wouldn’t change a thing. I learned a lot about myself in the waiting and it allowed me to prepare for the sacrifices that love and marriage would and has required of me.
Today that desire waiting to be fulfilled is motherhood. I have actually had “baby fever” for several years but recently that desire has been aching at my heart. I love kids, they are seriously the best humans in the world! They are smart, funny, so genuine, and love in such an unconditional way. It’s amazing to me. I feel like I’ve always been a mom at heart even from a young age, as I would care for and teach my baby dolls as if they were real babies 🙈
I am learning in this time of waiting (we aren’t quite ready for babies just yet as a couple and that’s ok, cause when we are ready it’s gonna be amazing) that I should be enjoying all the freedoms that life without kids offers. I usually stay occupied by taking great care of my hubby and our dog! However since it’s been just me and the dog, I miss taking care of another human. I know I am just missing my hubby and that is totally understandable! Plus I have several friends that will be having adorable babies soon, and I have so many friends who allow me to pour into and love on their kiddos!! I have truly been blessed in the season of waiting with some amazing women and kiddos to share life with while my hubby is away!! Thank you all for your love and support and indulging my baby fever!! #waiting #pactience #confession”
I know this may seem like a totally new topic, but trust me there is a connection.
This past week my heart was a bit heavy. It’s been 4 years now since my Grandma Linda passed away from cancer. She was an amazing, feisty, strong willed, and wise woman. I learned so very much from her. She taught me during my waiting that being married is a job you must take seriously. It means taking care of and meeting the needs of your partner, sometimes even when you don’t feel like it. I think the most memorable thing she said to me during this time is, “There might be days you wake up and you might not be able to stand anything about your husband. Just the fact that he exists might be irritating; know that loving someone is a choice, not a feeling.” I can’t guarantee that those are the exact words she used, but it’s pretty close, or at least the best I can remember. The point is loving is a choice we must choose daily!
Then one day in our second year of marriage, everything my hubby did irritated me to no end and I realized what my grandma meant! I was short with him and when he asked why, I remember responding, “I’m not really sure but just the fact that you exist today is irritating.” I know that sounds terrible, but it was true. I just woke up “on the wrong side of the bed” so to speak and felt irritated at the world, and my husband, and the dog, for no other reason than I was in an irritable mood. I took a little time to myself, then apologized to my wonderful hubby and made sure he knew I love him so very much. I was just feeling funky and I was taking it out on him. That day what my grandma had said to me really clicked.
She was such a wise woman and I am so thankful for all the time I had with her. As I mentioned above, she passed away from cancer. She was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer a few years prior, and I prayed that she would get well. That the Lord who can do all things, would heal her of the cancer. In this season of waiting for an answer, something was growing heavy on my heart. While I was praying, I just told God, “I know you are the healer; that all things are possible with you! I want you to know that, even if you don’t give me what I want. Even if my thought of healing isn’t the thing that happens, it doesn’t change how I feel about You. I know You’re still good and You still love me!” I know that may seem crazy to some, but this wasn’t the first grandparent I had prayed to be healed of a terminal illness.
My grandma Mary passed away of Lou Gehrig’s Disease (ALS) in 2000. My Grandpa Bill passed away from bone cancer in 2010. I prayed and prayed for them to be healed. But I believe there are two kinds of healing: the earthly healing and the heavenly healing. Earthly healing, when you are healed and get to have a personal testimony to share with others. Heavenly healing, where you receive the ultimate healing of no more sickness and no more pain in eternity with the Lord.
I have a personal relationship with the Lord, and through that I have learned that God is faithful. He has always kept me safe and protected me from harm. He has healed me! So I know that even if my prayers aren’t answered the way I want, that He’s still good and His love for me is true.
I guess the whole point of this is that I’ve learned that my ways, wants and desires for my life and what affects my life aren’t always what God has in mind, and I have learned that Gods plans for me are always more/better than anything I imagined for myself. If you read my post Everything I Dreamed and More, you know what I’m talking about.
I have learned in every season of waiting, to remind myself and the Lord, that even if I don’t get what I want, that I know His plans for me are good. I will still love Him even if I don’t get the things I feel so strongly in my heart. So even if my grandparents passed away, which they did. Even if I didn’t get to be married, which I did. Even if I don’t get to be a mom. That I know His plans for me are better than I can imagine and that I just need some help finding a new dream, if that’s the case.
I heard a song on K-LOVE the other day and it completely took me back to that feeling of crying out to God for what I wanted. Healing, a husband, Motherhood, and knowing that even if I don’t get what I want. God is my Hope and He has done so many good things for me and through me in my lifetime, that this one thing won’t keep me from loving Him! The song is called Even If,by MercyMe. The chorus is my favorite
Just know that waiting is never easy. However in my experience it is always a learning experience that is preparing you for what’s to come!!
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I don’t know about you but cooking is one of my favorite things to do, I’m a regular ole house wife these days (said with a huge smile across my face, cause I really love it). From the planning and prep to the cooking and enjoying, it is such a stress relieving activity. I found a great article called Kitchen Therapy: Cooking Up Mental Well-Being, it’s a short but good read that touches on the mental benefits of cooking!
I must admit that I was really great about planning out our meals during our first year of marriage, but that second year not so much. When we lived in California, I use to get out the cook books and plan two weeks worth of meals and write out all the ingredients I needed from the store for my grocery run. When we moved to North Carolina, I started making a list of the things we were out of that I know we eat a lot and occasionally wrote out ingredients for meals. I am gonna be honest we ate a lot of taco soup, mini meatloaves, tacos, chicken or fish and rice last year. On the plus side I never heard any complaints. However this year, during our long “see you soon”, I have decided I am going to get back into the habit of planning out two weeks of meals and the ingredients needed, along with spicing things up a little bit with some new dishes, and veggies with lunch and dinner. Confession, as much as I enjoy cooking, I am not amazing at multitasking (cooking mutliple items at a time), I usually end up plating the food and realizing I totally forgot the veggie.
This is the year for improvement! So lets get into the really good stuff! All the cooking things I’ll be sharing are gluten free. I went mostly gluten free in 2014 and haven’t looked back, well except for the occasional donut, but I pay dearly when I overdo it, with sinus congestion, headaches, and irritability! I do not have an “allergy” to gluten that is life threatening, but I was experiencing “seasonal allergy” sinus issues and did some research to help me feel better, and what you eat matters! To read more about my reasons for cutting out gluten click here!
Here are a few things I’ve made and enjoyed lately.
Tacos, one of my go to food choices! Sometimes we do chicken fajita style as well, I think this might be one of my favorite meals….we eat it a lot!
Something new I made over the weekend was this amazing One Pan Pesto Chicken and Veggies
Another new side dish I made was cauliflower “rice”, the recipe came from my against all grain cookbook (I have the one to the very right “meals made simple”).
While searching for the cauliflower “rice” recipe (with no luck), I found a new recipe that I can’t wait to try this week called Beef Cauliflower Fried Rice, but I’m gonna use chicken instead of beef!
I don’t have any tips for cooking but I can tell you, keep trying. Learning is good for the mind, and on the plus if you mess it up, you’ll know better next time. 🙂 Also Pinterest recipes can be amazing or they can be total flops, so don’t be to hard on yourself when they don’t turn out. I have had my share of pinterest fails, as frustrating as it can be, just throw that recipe out or modify to make it better! We’ve had our share of, “It might be gross but this is what’s for dinner, I won’t make it again…Sorry” moments. Thankfully my hubby can always find the bright side to my cooking, or fibs and tells me “it’s not that bad” when I am eating that same thing and know it’s not that great either. Thank God for a loving husband, who appreciates the thought and love I put into making our meals!
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Here are some of my favorite memories we’ve shared during our 2 years of marriage so far, and can’t wait to make so many more memories when you return!
Riley and Oden were such a joy to work with! They were so much fun and have such great smiles! All the love and joy in these images makes my heart happy and brings a smile to my face!These kiddos love their parents so much and they have some great ones! Love how evident that is! ❤Moments like this are what I love to capture for the families I serve, because these are the things you don’t wanna forget. One day those boys will be older, tickles probably won’t bring such joy and contagious laughter as they did that day, but you will always be able to look back at this image and remember how much fun they were when then. Don’t get me wrong seeing your kids grow up and change is amazing (I’m sure), but I think it’s awesome to be able to look back through images and remember, cause not only the joy of youth is captured in this image, but also the evidence of what a great parent you are!A sibling is a life long friend and these two are gonna have so many more amazing memories together in their lifetime. So honored to capture some moments of their youth! Love! As parents you have a lot of responsibility, you take care of your kids, work, clean, but the most important thing you do (in my opinion) is teach your kids how to love by the way you love each other! That’s why images like this melt my heart!! ❤️Parents who are still so very in love with each other and let it show!! You are teaching them what a relationship looks like, and let me tell you just from the time I spent with Abby and Jarod, those boys are seeing such a beautiful example of love!! Thank you for letting me into your world to capture the beauty of your love and your amazing family!!!This is one of my favorite new products!! There are so many ways to display your Wood Print: sit it on a desk, prop on a book-case, or hang on the wall!! The best part is that your family memory is preserved in print!!! #apearproducts #apearphotography
Thank you for allowing me to capture your active growing family, it is truly an honor!!
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Happy Valentines Day everyone! Thought I’d share Taylor, Tyler, and Anastasia’s beautiful family session today since they wore red for their pictures! The Kalb Family were picture perfect and with the beautiful fall scenery back in November… I love how you can tell how much love abounds in a family by the way they interact with each other, and let me tell you love is not in short supply here! ❤ Anastasia is just the cutest little thing! I mean just look at that adorable face and let’s be honest you don’t pose littles they do as they please, which makes it so much more them anyway (that’s the goal isn’t it…well it’s my goal when photographing your kiddos). She has so much personality and I enjoyed capturing every minute of it!Taylor and Tyler are such sweet parents! I love all the sweet images I captured for them!Capturing the love a mother has for her child is just one of the many things I love about being a photographer! This little cutie will be walking before you know it, she was all for standing with mom and dad for some pictures and just look at that smile! Little smiles are possibly my absolute favorite thing ever…..⠀This little one is gonna be a heart throb when she gets older!I believe love is one of the most important things we can teach our children these days! Not just loving them and letting them know how special they are, but showing and modeling what love looks like. How to be kind and considerate to others, while teaching them to love themselves. Trust me they notice more than you think, watching eyes are always learning. So teach them well! It is always such an honor to capture these amazing memories for my clients (aPear Family)! I am truly blessed to be able to work with such wonderful families!
Thank you so much Kalb Family for entrusting me to capture your family photos, so you can cherish this life and these moments long after your cutie is grown!
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